Catching Up

It may seem like I have been a total slacker for the last couple of months - in a way this may also be true - but I do also have a half acceptable reason for my absence. I have moved house and been living in the stone age without the internet for 6 weeks. This might sound like a bit of a cop out, but if you've ever moved in your life, you'll know it isn't a case of all out, all aboard, all in again. It takes much longer than that and the effort involved has made me want to die old and senile, right here, in this very house.
I have, to make up for my lack of communication, been doing an awful lot of thinking about writing and the thought processes that go into it. (I have of course been using the out-dated pen and paper method of keeping my hands flexed during my AWOL period.)
I have come up with some ideas that I hope will help me to write more easily and with more prolifacy. Believe it or not I have started to read a couple of books on becoming a Buddhist. Not the first thing that sprngs to mind when yu think of improving writing skills I'm sure, but really a useful exercise in clearing the mind and focusing on positivity. I think I have mentioned before my distinct lack of happy endings; this is not something that fills me with joy when I consider the future of my own life. So my Buddhist guide is giving me an insight into purity of life and methods for clearing my mind of negative thoughts. An interesting experiment, one that I am taking very seriously. (The sarcastic tone of my blog is due to my natural propenisty to take the piss, not my lack of  interest in anything I might write about.)
I am fascinated by the theory of Buddhism and have put it 'at the centre of my being' in order to ensure my dedication to seeing it through. I do feel a little worried of the mockery I may get from those around me, worried enough to not shout it from the roof tops, but not worried enough to keep the text I am reading under constant surveillance.
My writing has been a non-starter n the last couple of weeks, mostly because I haven't been maintaining my work-life balance as well as I could have done. I have lost enthusiasm for both my work and my life, so writing was the last thng I wanted to do. But over time I am getting better at understanding my own processes and the lethargy is fewer and further between.
Today is my first day of Buddhism and I am here writing now. Whether that is the Buddhism or just having some time off I'm not quite sure, perhaps my next instalment will be a picture of tranquility and level-minded mantras!